BEING LADY GAGA

In defense of my generation ... of “my being now", let me just reflect from the past. Well, in my grade school years, I didn't know why I ever started liking gals, I thought it was just a simple appreciation to one's quality but I had my first kiss with a girl in elementary, I kept telling myself that it was okay but it hits me. I kind of had doubts about my sexuality in primary (silly as it sounds) but I found girls attractive. However I never thought anything of it because I was young and I thought maybe every girl at my age goes through it. I've always felt connected to some of my friends in a different way. But, I was so afraid that I am trying to convince myself I am not. If I told my family that I liked girls, they would probably laugh in my face and tell me I am too young to know what I want. But I can't control my thoughts. All of these things were disregarded when I went to high school, it was co-ed so the part of thinking I was complex, had stopped. Well, the thoughts and feelings came back when I was in college.

First and foremost, HOMOSEXUALITY is no longer an issue in the society nowadays. Judging from my social environment, homosexuality is pretty much accepted. And this I could say with my head held high. If you ask me, there is nothing wrong with being a gay or a lesbian just as long as being homo still not synonymous with being a murderer. These people claim to have been in existence underground for past generations and now want to go mainstream. I was so keen that the presence and population grows rapidly. Seemed like they have finally decided to step out from their own tiny little cocoons. THE PROBLEM IS, some people judge, criticizes, abandon, hate, avoid, and underestimate US. It’s totally unfair reading or hearing something making people think things about US; things that are aside destructive to our otherwise normal reputation are also untrue about a good fraction of our entire population. Now I go on my own personal journey from rock bottom to finding happiness again.

Talking about love in accordance to homosexuality, the world found here is really different. Why different? Ask a homosexual, ask me personally lol! It is complicated and it is sometimes hard to deal with, it is confusing but once you get through it, you are on top of the world.HOWEVER, I believe that I together with the whole of my generation have a great potential and a very promising future. People just have to understand that this future will be harder to reach if everybody keeps putting us down and ridiculing our dreams. WHAT WE NEED is guidance and faith-NO! Actually we don’t need! WE DESERVE!

-dyoyzee-