ONLINE FRIENDSHIP

What brings me to go out on weekends? It’s boredom mostly…

What brings me to blog? It could be boredom or trying to hustle and bustle my thoughts into something that interests me. Well lately, I’ve been so much gravitated with friends and drinking buddies. Having lots of consecutive parties, drinks and stay-outs, meet-ups with queers (that stuff is juvenile and I still go with it) made me feel that sometimes, there is a need to feel empty and alone. I’ve been thinking to make a night of it. Actually I do it when it is needed.

These days, I have learned so much and found out exciting things via internet and that is the so –called INTERNET FRIENDSHIP. I AM a social creature. It’s a basic human instinct to care about others, and to want to be liked. I am now willing to share what I am thinking and care about consistencies publicly and earn the attention and affection of an invested audience. BUT what is strange, there is the opportunity that excites me as someone who spends time trying to figure out how to inspire meaningful connections between myself and the strangers online. I began to make friend requests to those individuals that I am interested with, although basically they are ABSOLUTE STRANGERS. It is like there’s the feeling of excitement and fear. But I am really careful on choosing who to go out with. Who wants to be in danger anyway? Usually, I have to become someone’s real friend first. Make some SMS or chat online. If both of us jives and we have really that “something” (don’t want to stress enough what this “something” means LOL!), well I guess, it’s time to show up and do the EB thing. =]

I have this in my mind lately… just because some cute girl/boy likes the bizarre crap you do, that doesn’t make him or her a soulmate. Relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt… Who needs it? We are young. We live in the most democratic place in the world. Might as well have fun while we can and save the serious stuff for later. I know many would agree to disagree my side, but who cares? THIS IS ME. I RUN MY WORLD. I don't have to prove anything to anyone. I only have to follow my heart and concentrate on what I want to say to the world. I brought peace in my past and now moving forward for my future.

Here’s another lesson that I have adapted from Girlie, she's someone special I met online, it is okay to be persistently annoying when drunk, and it’s acceptably part of it. What always happens, just happens, indeed a part of life…JUST DO WHAT YOU WANT ANYWAY.MOST days of the year are remarkable, they begin and they end with no lasting memories made in between. Most days have no impact on the course of a life. There is no such thing as COINCIDENCE. People meet for a special reason. There’s no such thing as fate, nothing is meant to be. The word is invented in attempt to explain something. I think people create “coincidences” to protect themselves from fear and from things they do not yet understand. To invoke a “coincidence” is to not always abide the truth and to somehow twist blame or responsibility aware from a self-aware reality. It’s mind-boggling, but true. I end this thing with a question; it’s up to you if you will answer it or not to care at all…LOL!

Why is it human nature to invent the most complicated rationale for the simplest cause and effect?

-dyoyzee-