GOING BACK

When you’re too busy having fun, you forget to blog. I’ve completely lost the mood to blog all of a sudden. It might be the disappointment; it might be the lure to get on with my family, especially when “ber” month started last year, I have compelled myself and was associated with so many activities that I’ve forgotten what I like and dislike, want and do not want in this life. I love pizza and pasta; I love black beans and “Dionie’s Mami King”. I love English literature, I love writing, I love Nina, want to watch her shows and concerts. I want to travel to Africa and America. I love lying down on a floor or in a rooftop and stare stars at night. I love girls ^_^

I have my wants and desires. I was ambitious in a childlike manner. I still am. There’s a hunger in me that wants to want these things again. Everything in my life is fuzzy and blurry. I used to know why I choose certain things or people over others. Why I said NO to many, just to say yes to the few things close to my heart. But it’s all not easy. Not easy to separate yourself with the world that distracts you and keeps you ‘busy’. It’s not easy to say NO anymore and hence, YES to many other things. It’s not easy to look at your heart and know that you’ve done the right thing or something you truly believe in.

Now the adventure continues, I’m here in front of my desktop, writing what’s keeping me. At these very moment, I’m in a place to discuss my interests, my hobbies and my work, my life …BUT it’s a bimbo when you only talk about your biography in a blog, things happening around me is commencing an idea to simply say something that suddenly pops out in my head.

I am now in relief, I got into a little trouble lately, the one with the posting issues, and it merely turned to chasm, it’s like the chicken or the egg causality dilemma which is commonly stated as "which came first, the chicken or the egg?"…here it goes, early last year, I asked someone to do me a favor, and I needed a logo of a T-shirt for our batch in the centennial celebration of our high school alma mater. So I had it, thanks to the artist, yet, there was a small restoration and final retouch by me. So I posted the design to a social network (Facebook) where in my batchmates agreed and voted their choices on what to use. So the printing went through, and the event was done and it has in many ways deepened bonds and friendships. Reunited it seemed and was glad about it. So here comes the issue: after the event, New Year is here, I visited other FB profiles and found out pictures that batches 95 & 96 have similarities in the design of t-shirt. Well, initial reaction was, I was disappointed, there was a copying of design, I generalized, I blurted out wrong impressions by which so much defenses has made, and finally found out that the ideas and the concepts was actually COINCIDENTAL. The reference that they used was the same with ours. So I made a move, since I was the one who started it; I replied that everything was a twist of faith. Either parties or batches agreed that batch 95 and 96 were indeed soul batches, we are one and we are not enemies, we are Augustinians…that’s what I said...Suddenly, I had a deep breathing and got relieved! Poker face is back! lol!

But I’d like to end this post talking about something that everyone may believe in. “If you are really happy, don’t be too happy, because happiness never last”. I believe it is awful to have that sort of mentality. I am very happy at the moment. I think I am having one of the best times of my life, otherwise, the best. I don’t expect things to go perfectly well in the months to come. It will be tough I know as January marks the beginning of my adventure. Nevertheless, I shall trust in God and I thank him for all the great things that has happened to me. My greatest comfort and the only comfort that I need is that I know He will be with me, through thick and thin, and He will provide when I am in need, for “I shall not be in want”. I am grateful with what I have.

The rest who do not trust in God, I think that life is too short for you to worry about tomorrow? Life is too short to spend it on worrying about things you cannot control.

-dyoyzee-