I haven’t blogged in a
while coz lately I found myself so pent-up in a different sort of head-space
than normal. So now, I just feel like sharing something I believe God has put
in my heart. I want to overcome the notion to have a regular PMA, which stands
for Positive Mental Attitude, I’ve honestly been better. I can breathe easier as
always and that would make things extraordinary. I’m awake, calm, and happy and
bored (as of now); this is what I’m going to do. As I sit here and type, I come
to realize that I am really talented. I have all these passions for things and if I
actually combined them, and put my mind to it to create something awesome, I
know I could do it. So what made me come to a point to write again? Well, just
awhile ago, a friend in FACEBOOK talked about in his status that
THIS TIME, HE’LL GET IT RIGHT.
It caught me; I know perfection is nowhere near
with anyone in this globe. So, in every step we take, we might fall but at long
least, we tried and have already learned. Lately a lot has been going on in my
life, whether I realize it or not. I don’t even know how to explain it to be
honest, let’s just say I was in a rut but now I’m out of it. I guess I’m trying
to realize that it’s okay to have negative thoughts. It’s okay to be sad but
what’s not okay is denying that you’re sad. Being positive, or having a “PMA”,
doesn’t mean you’re happy 100% of the time! I guess I’m just trying to accept
these negative feelings, which feels like I’m going backwards but I guess
really at the end of the day I’m moving forward.
I just want to speak a
moment from the heart as to what motivates me. I don’t know what it is about today,
but I feel at peace with myself. Staying alone in a work place gets lonely now
and then, but it fades over time. So my desktop is my best friend the whole working
day. I eat lunch solo. Sometimes eating alone is just fine, and sometimes it's
not. Meals are a shared experience in most cultures, so it is a classic time
for loneliness to come up, if we find ourselves alone at meal times. Once in a
while, I wish I had some companionship with my meal. Sometimes I invite friends
over and dine out with them. So it’s like that and I am used to it in years
passed. So back with the attitude thingy; I’m just learning that nothing is
really so bad, and I don’t have to stress out over things. I’m having fun, I’m
living for myself and I’m digging
my music more than ever right now. Thinking about how drastically my outlook on
life has changed in the past 2 years is incredible. I’m glad I’m able to feel
so much love for the people in my life now, instead of feeling sorry for myself
and harboring a lot of bitter feelings and hatred. Maybe my past mistakes were
some of the best I’ve made for my current self. I’d never make them again, and
perhaps the way I feel lately, I think it’s a good thing. I am having so many
things I can enjoy in my life. I often write down my thoughts but I noticed
that I have the tendency to focus on the negative things happening around and
in me. Not now! It’s easy to get into the
habit of seeing doom and gloom in every situation, but doing so keeps you
forever focused on the negative. I live by quotes that explain exactly what I’m
going through everyday. I make up excuses for everything. I have true friends
and critics. I have good memories and a share of dramas. I really appreciate it
that there are many people & if I say ‘many,’ I mean it; who love the imperfect
me unconditionally. They are the reason why giving up has never been an option
for me. I'm a tablespoon of sugar, a cup of spice, but most of all, I am
everything nice. CAUTION! Don’t be
mistaken by my kindness for weakness, because I will prove you wrong.
I guess I learned a little bit more about myself
writing this post than I thought I would.
The world may not get
better or more exciting, but that doesn’t mean my attitude has to decline with
it. Stress is a good thing. Without stress from our environment, evolution
wouldn’t have taken place and we wouldn’t be here today. A positive attitude,
on the other hand, turns you into a person that everyone wants to be with; a
person that constantly experiences great things, a person who attracts great
people and opportunities and a person who loves their life. I’ve done loads of
shits in the past but that changed me to a better me now. Good things are
happening and I’m so psyched for the rest of this year, it’s going to be
amazing I can feel it. So there you have it! I just can’t get enough of the
positive vibes right now.
Let’s start the happier & better me!Stress Free World!
-dyoyzee-
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