Monday, May 30, 2011

RAINY DAYS


When I was a child, I have loved dodging the rain. I want it to come out and play with it. During those days, if it’ll rain too hard, classes were suspended; I’d always loved to groove and dance in the rain with playmates and siblings. Rainy days for me before was a time to drench myself under the rain until my lips turned pale and my body shaking because it felt cold. I walked barefoot in the puddles and been in loved with it before. Funny it seems yet it I would always loved singing …Raindrops keep falling on my head. It brings back a lot of good memories in my childhood days. Traditionally, there were times that me and my sisters would play Zombie inside the house particularly in our parents bedroom, It's not only fun, but it's also a good exercise. A game that maybe known by everybody, the way we have portrayed it was memorable to me and so with my siblings. I loved playing zombie, we made use of props; putting dots on ones face using Johnson's baby powder and a blanket to cover ourselves. This is an old game and I hope that it would be handed down from our generation to our next generation in the family. I just hope we’ll not lose it! I also remember picking fallen avocados, papaya and santol! And my favorite part was, eating pickled santol with authentic Ilocos vinegar and shared it with the family members or friends.

Sometimes, when it rains, I would just sit by the window and just observe how the rain makes the whole scene look so good. Now that I’ve grown, the thought that rainy season is here sometimes, there are a lot of things that comes to my mind, like when I hear thunder, I wonder if vampires are playing baseball, lol! I just thought of the movie Twilight. It keeps me wondering why the the Cullen family opts to play baseball in the middle of a thunderstorm.

And thanks to Google, I was then excused with my ignorance and it’s overwhelming. The Cullens needed the thunders while playing baseball because when they kick the ball with the bat it sounds very loud, so when they kick it with thunders, the sound can be dissimulated by the sound of thunders. (They have to dissimulate it because imagine having those sounds (being human) and don't see thunders that make that sound, it would be very suspicious
That's why Bella says that now she understood why they needed the thunders just after Rosalie kicked, because it sounded as a thunder.) And also remember when Edward and Emmett shock in the air, it sounded also very hard...as thunders! I understand why I am Number Four was cut into sequences and I am so much excited about the prospect of seeing more on NUMBER SIX , coz her action sequences are really exciting and it's really okay that Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows was split into two movies but as for Breaking Dawn - that's unnecessary. I was WTH! Honestly why are they making it in 2 parts? But it made me happy upon knowing that the showing of the movie will be on my BIRTHDAY! In this tough economy, a movie ticket of Breaking Dawn would definitely make my day. So whoever plans to celebrate it with me, well, this sounds fun to me aside from drinking celebrations. I would love to make a lot of difference this time.

Going back and connecting with my topic, I am so much inclined with this KOREAN television series nowadays; I've already watched it for the nth time. My girlfriend is a gumiho.Meaning, her girlfriend is a fox. so here's the synopsis:

Cha Dae Woong accidentally releases a gumiho, a legendary fox with nine tails that eats the livers of humans. He meets a pretty girl who is the gumiho he released. When Dae Woong finds out about what he did, he must try to keep her happy and hide the fact that she is a gumiho from everyone. As the story goes on, the legendary gumiho (later called Miho) wants to be human. Miho is informed by a veterinarian named Park Dong Joo (who is also not a human) that she must drink his blood to become a human in 100 days while Dae Woong will have to keep her magical fox bead meanwhile. Moreover, Dae Woong will not be able to date anyone else but gumiho within the 100 days. However, Dong Joo doesn’t tell Miho that in 100 days, in order to become human, Dae Woong must die. Trouble brews when Miho and Dae Woong eventually fall in love.

I’ve never ever loved more female character more than a male character in a drama but she managed to steal my heart since episode 1.Everything she did was completely adorable. Her cute face, the way she ate, her love for meat, when she demonstrated her powers to Woong ah! The fact that she threatened him to eat him if he didn’t get her meat was hilarious. Also the way that she didn’t care on demonstrating her love for him, there was no shame in her. She was in love and proud! Now, what makes the series unique was when MIHO cries, it rains, signifying that she is in a frown. So sometimes, when it rains, my friend REI and I would just say, OMG! MIHO is crying again! When it rains, there is a feeling of loneliness; you can’t do other activities outside while the sun is out. I still go gaga over this Korean series. I miss the "hoy hoy" couple already. They were great! Emotionally heart- tugging! Like everyone else, I hope for the season 2 to come out. And this may be entitled as "MY WIFE IS A GUMIHO". Right now, this series captures the whole of me. It has actually given me so many lessons in life. That is to be brave enough to look out for your own, unique road in life. Choose your inspiration but always stay true to yourself. Don't let anyone tell you what is right or wrong. You will always find the true answers within yourself.

I can't regret any step I've taken in life really. Having said that, I don't mean that I haven't done any mistakes, I've done plenty of them. Tons of mistakes that were a result of bad planning, lack of inspiration, not enough will power, poor calculations, laziness or just human stupidity at times. At the end of the day I am just a human being. But the difference between people like us and the others who doesn't dare to make mistakes is that we do not want to stagnate. We make faults and like that we get stronger, we learn and we move on. We develop ourselves as every second pass by and we do not let human failures stand in the way of the passion we feel for life and for being alive. I just don't take life that serious and less so with each year I get older. And wiser I suppose.

-dyoyzee-

Saturday, May 28, 2011

MOVING ON

I had a thought yesterday; it was: “The only unrequited love that truly exists is towards ourselves.” It seems, so much in our lives, we can experience this sense of love unreturned to us by those we want it from.

The most important thing is to move on and eventually we'll find somebody nice who likes us for who we are. There is no such thing as being 'the only one for you'...and now I just have to make sure that I am the only person that they want.

And this time, I’ll bear in mind that the next truly special person in my life can happen any time, any where, even if I am not looking or expecting it to happen.

It’s really easy to get bummed when someone you really like in that way, doesn’t like you back in that way. You know what I’m talking about – you desire them and they think of you only as a friend. Yeah – the friend zone.

When we love ourselves, we remember that rejection is protection. When we love ourselves we are careful whom we give our hearts to. When we love ourselves, we see every event of our lives as lessons and know that there are no shortages in this globe we are living in. I know that if it doesn’t work out with that someone I had my eye on, or that job I have really wanted, something greater is on my way.

We love ourselves and are filled with this love; it’s nearly impossible to feel unrequited love from someone else. It’s only when we have given that person power over our lives and control over our emotional well-being that we can feel unrequited love from them. Feeling unrequited love from someone is a symptom of low self-esteem and a misalignment with your power.

So, right now, even though I am feeling this way, I will take my power back and I’ll put trust in the things that the world has in store for me. I will now let go a little and see what’s next. There is no easy way. I can’t make myself fall in love this time while I am lonely. I can not make a vulnerable act that would lead to heartache in the future. This time, I’ll be wise. There is someone perfect for me out there and that person will find me as I become more and more authentic of myself.

While I am feeling the low vibrations of unrequited love, I will not go and chasing after it from other people. I’ll remain calm and STOP, I will check in within myself and be still. I will not seek out the path of trying to fill myself up from other people or substances, I know I will just make it worse. I will take care of myself as God takes care of me. Now I can stay in power and do things that nurture my heart and soul.

This is what I mean when I say, “The only unrequited love that truly exists is towards ourselves.” When we love ourselves, we are not seeking others to fill us and we are free to detach and welcome in the perfect person in the perfect time. And in the meantime, I will fill my life up with serenity and joy – so we can step into savoring the waiting, instead of dreading it. I am too lucky enough; friends are with me and so with my family. The immeasurable love lingers on with me.

I have now my power back, all the things that I used to fear has cast its shadows and flown away, YES! I am watching it going away.

Everything will be fine. I’ll end this blog with the lyrics of a song close to my heart.

TAKE MY HEART BACK:

It'll be alright
You said
Tomorrow
Don't you cry
Don't you shed a tear
When you wake up
I will still be here
When you wake up
We'll battle all your fears
And now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tears

Just a little more time was all we needed
Just a little time for me to see
Oh,the light that life can give you
Oh,how we get such a free
So now I'll...

Take my heart back
Leave your pictures on the floor
Steal back my memories
I can't take it anymore
I've cried my eyes out
Oh,and now I face the years
The way you loved me
Vanished all the tear

-dyoyzee-